Awkward, Normal. (Happy Birthday Isabel)

When I hold her hands I feel her passion as my partner,
The days I spend apart from you are like minutes under water, 
We're a team and loves our sponsor, 
I'm her monster, to conquer, 
Her knight in shining armor, 
She's my supporter, 
When life's a living torture,
Our loves a mess call us hoarders, 
We're not going anywhere like cars with no motors, 
She keeps me warm in the long and cold Octobers, 
My hearts private property shes the Owner,
We carry the weight of each others worlds on our shoulders, 
To keep this relationship afloat is a constant battle were both soldiers, 
Well stick together as we grow older, 
Awkward and abstract but we both feel normal, 
I'm her opposite in her journal,  
Shes up early and I'm Nocturnal, 
I've learned her, I can give you a tour, 
And be thorough.

Honestly?..

Tired of everyone judging, 
I focus on trying, 
I'm between screaming and crying.
I'm so indecisive, 
It's not that I wanna stay quiet, 
Its just that Words can't put together
what I want to express so I live in silence, 
Hidden behind laughter with Daily migrants, 
Shit if I told you the truth you thought id be lying..
Midlife crisis.. Hoping that the sun  starts rising, 
Focused on my hustle but the problems keep coming, 
I have my eyes aimed at the target but I'm no good at archery,  
I speak horribly of the irony of my anxiety, 
Dealing with these fucked up ass views of society, 
I need a bottle of rum cuz I'm suffering sobriety, 
Honestly...This is my honesty.